Today is a new day for me still the same old routine i just had my facical and my my first waxing well now i feel so hairless haha so cool...and it feel very smooth on the surface should have done it long ago.....it is getting more and more stressful so must take care of myself abit...if not will get old very fast one haha....well i m kinda of expert in my own caring formulae can consult me if u trust me la dun worry wun charge u a single cent...

Today is valentines day i here wishes all the couple a happy valentines day regardless u are str8 couple or aj couple the bottom line is must be happy well to me valentines is alway a day that i m looking forward when i m attached coz this day is the day where couple really show much they love each other or maybe only this day u can see how much ur lover put in for a r/s but this yrs i kinda of sad coz my r/s just ended few days be4 today but today i wun allow myself to stay at home and rot i will go gym later go praying after which go for hair cut tonite i will be in town....especially the garden where me and my ex first met he bought me there it is very romantic over there i guess tonite surely there is couple over there as well..last but not least happy valentines day to all of u...

wELL TOday is sunday early morning when i wake up i start to cry again i thought i already get over y m i still crying? in fact, i m self denied if i so easily forget about my relationship then that is not me usually i dun fall in love easily but once i fall in love i will give my 100% regarding how long is the relationship it can be one week one month one yrs..i also dun know when can i get over this fail relationship rite now i still feel very pain very hurt inside my heart although frds are around me to cheer me up ultimately it still have to depend on myself to stand up but it is so difficult i think that makes me different from other aj others wil recover very fast while i really dun know when can i stand up again and stop feeling sad and trust love again...

Today is saturday...today i went to gym..so long after i break up..well i think life must go on..i feel sad cry he wun even know what i have been throught later this afternoon i m meeting him for the very last time after which i dun think i will wanna contact him anymore...if not i will nver be able to forget him..i know it is very callous but it is the only way out if not i will feel hurt all the time even now i still feel hurt very hurt u may say it is only for a mth plus only but to me it is not the period it is the love and effort i put in.. i also dun know what to expect for today meet up just hoped i will not be too emotional which is very hard to control.. Valentine is coming this yrs i will be alone but nevertheless, i will not stay at home neither will go out with frds i just wanna go town alone walk ard looking at loving couple dinning together enjoying their sweet moment as for me at the same time can refresh my happy memory with him think i more then content....

Today life is as usual i try to do more thing to stop me from thinking of my broken relationship but no used it suppose to get better as days goes by but it is not the case for me perhaps it is getting worse i still cannot get over him..i still thinking of him of thing we do together my frd say y must u so sad maybe he is having fun somewhere else enjoying himself my frd keep saying me stupid..yes i must admit when i m in love i m a fool i will put 101% inside a r/s but my frd say i should be so emotional but i cannot help u may think i m very drama..whenever, i listen to our "break up song" i will start to sob even in the bus i also cannot control myself.. y must him do that to me what i did wrong? y fate is playing with me y god so unfair to me i m not asking for much just want to love and beloved is that alot to ask for?

today is another fine day third day after my broke up..slowly feeling better with my frds around me to cheer me up..my frd is rite men who cheated once r likely to do so again and again..now i started to believe men are not meant to be monogamous they r horny by nature if temptation comes along he will just go for it.. never thought that they might just hurt someone who truthly loves them.. lust will destroy everything..i fallen terribly now i must learnt to stand up once again i need my frd to help me my family...most important i hoped someone will come to my love life again although i m jaded i still pretty much hoped that i can be in love again although in aj circle it is very hard to get someone who is really caring and faithful aj are superficial they only go for lust but not love..maybe i m the weird one i prefer love then lust..he did beg me for another chance..whenever i think of his betrayer to me i just cannot tolerant..i will slowly draft from him stop replying his sms and phone call i m sure he will forget me and move on even he wanna go ons i have no rite to say anything anymore...

Today is a new day, one day after my fallen out with my partner my feeling is still very down...somemore i m still sick i took a bus when to my partner place and return stuff to my partner..after which i went to great world city to walk ard..the place where my partner usually will bring me there like restaurant where we had meal together supermarket where we go buy grocery together..it is very heart warming when recall..after which i took a shutter bus to chinatown but i nver really go walk ard..guess because ppl will look at me coz i m having puffy eyes..yes been crying since my way to my partner's house... btw today i took a mc coz still not feeling too well.. i guess god is just playing with me when i thought i found someone of my life yet he took away so fast so swift...guess the one for me is yet to be found..not to worry i will brace myself up in no time..mean time sadness is inevitable what i need is time i guess..